Because of My Decision

Today I was being so stupid, and I felt like everything almost went wrong because of my decision. I went to the Naval School Academy to see my boyfriend for only two hours and when the time was running out, I started to cry. Then I told my boyfriend that I was bored to be like this. I cannot stand when we can only see each other on Saturday, we cannot hold hand in the public place when he dresses in a uniform and even when we walk in his school, and we can only stay in a limited area where the school provides us. Moreover, the real reason that I cried was that I did not want to leave him I wished the time when we stay together would somehow last longer. During the conversation, he interrupted me by telling me to stop because he feels guilty with what I have said; he thought he had not been a good boyfriend for me. I then added that what he had said was true but I prefer him than any better man. I just wish that someday when we get older these all stupid things would be changed. We stop talking right there cause he rushed out to prepare for the military parade which is coming up tomorrow. After spending two hours in a taxi, I finally got home safe. I was somewhat bored so I went to the comics shop to rent something to read for fun, I got two comic books and some interesting Chinese novels, which are good for me to gain some language skills. Actually, my Chinese does not that bad I just need to study some vocabulary to spell them right, it is necessary when I go to Taiwan to visit my grandmother and she asks me to help with the bills for her shop. My dad’s family is Chinese so my dad always expects me to speak very well Chinese. However, I feel like it waste of time Taiwan is not a good place to live, it is crowded and people are not kind. I have been to Taiwan almost every summer and this summer I feel very lucky that I have to take some classes during the summer break so I will not have time to go. Last week I just have a new rabbit and yesterday she was somewhat sick so I brought her to a pet hospital but the doctor cannot really help her much so he gave some vitamin and liquid food. My rabbit is not getting any better; I think I waste money for nothing. I hope that she will get better because she is my third rabbit, the other two died already so she really has to get well soon! So now I just act like a nurse for my rabbit. This afternoon Jelly asked me to go out for dinner and we ate a lot. I was surprised that we ordered many things even though we have always complained about the weight. I can’t confess that I feel happy every time I can eat what I want to eat !!